i move to a place. a place totally new to me. i have little friend, start with new job, living with new family all because of marriage. this is a girl in asian destiny, always have no choice when come to marriage. but with the hope can have easier life at the island, can be with the one u love. but in reality is not really the same.
i met him back in college time, he used to skip class, mc from work, and after 7 years, he still the same. working his mom has the priority to play game watch football up to midnight, coz need not to wake up early. life is totally mess for him. no responsibility not to mention to the family, even his own. he seems like no direction in life, life is so easy. that's the man i married, why i marry him? because i believe he can give me security in relationship which i had a real bad one for my first relationship.
afterall, other aspects for a relationship is sustain also count. but wat can i do now? after 3 mths here, when am sad, i just think of all ways to escape from this island. but what can i do next? but if really no choice i think i will leave here.
i even think of when i go back kl coming aug, i dont want to come back here anymore. because i am not happy, am anxious for my future, i dont see future. our relationship is fading away, no more passionate, i can say no more intimacy. how to sustain this kind of relationship?
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